I am not a photographer and definitely not learning to be one. I actually hate understanding those photography jargons and tiny icons and digits appearing in my DSLR cam screen.
But I love ‘stilling moments’ and preserving them the way I want them remembered.
For as long as my memory takes me back in time, I have been coming up with ways on how to. Before I mastered the art of writing, I tried exploring sketching and simply doodling. But my supposedly dexterous left hand refused to cooperate so I got tired and decided I’d write instead.
It was during my secondary years when writing almost turned me down. My English teacher (who eventually became my declamation trainer) would most of the time give my write-ups back with ugly cross marks and rather low scores. But I loved writing, how could it not love me back? Or so I thought.
I was not endowed with conversational skills then, hence hardly seen in a group. Most often I would resign to my own thoughts, ponder for a moment and note down the words that came out of my mind so vibrant I thought they were all real. There were even times I was looking blankly at something when my brother’s voice snapped me out of that joyous reverie, “Never mind her. She’s having a world of her own.” Then I was back to reality.
I just wished my eyes had the super power to capture every lovely moment they would witness and produce it as a still image. Well I was a kid then.
My love for writing and chronicling moments – both good and bad – resulted in a box of diaries, poems, literary write-ups and random written thoughts, kept for years, yellowed and dilapidated, yet still readable until the super typhoon Yolanda struck and drowned them by a flood. I was in Abu Dhabi when my mom informed me. I thought a big part of my life had gone down the drain together with that precious box. I grieved for days.
Like anyone who lost someone or something dear, I moved on with my life. This time I shunned diaries away. I had gone from just writing to supporting my write-ups with graphics. That’s when my fondness for photos and videos came in.